In the opening scene of Minal Hajratwala's one-woman show, Avatars: Gods for a New Millennium — which was commissioned by the Asian Art Museum of San Francisco for World AIDS Day in 1999 — a young Indian-American woman identified only as "M" announces: "I was born in America, but I was supposed to worship the Hindu gods, with their fantastic stories and costumes." Images of Hindu gods "stood against the back wall of our suburban temple, lit with floodlights, radiating a huge aura that said 'Obey your parents.' We made offerings of raisins and rock candy," M remembers, but the gods' "marble skin was always cold, they never performed any miracles, and when I put my hands together and gestured toward them, I just wanted so much more."
Ouch. Joining her onstage, god-of-destruction Shiva and his consort Parvati assess M, predicting that she'll have "beautiful babies" and that they'll "bless her wedding" after they "find her a doctor or an engineer" to marry. But by the third act, M has transformed into "the Goddess of Tough Love," who tells her would-be acolytes: "If the world ends, you'll be having an orgasm — and so will I. ... I'm not Aphrodite, or Venus, little blonde goddess on the half-shell with tits the size of teacups. Uh-uh."
Stanford-grad queer-activist writer/performer Hajratwala plies the lines between sex and spirituality, blood and society again in her book Leaving India: My Family's Journey from Five Villages to Five Continents, which she discusses at the Women of Color Resource Center (1611 Telegraph Ave. #303, Oakland) on Tuesday, July 21. To research the book, she spent years interviewing more than seventy of her relatives in such far-flung locales as Hong Kong, Fiji, South Africa, Australia, and New Zealand, where she spent some of her own formative years.
"I grew up not knowing much about the diaspora at all," Hajratwala explains. Having moved back and forth across the Pacific as a child, she thought little about "why all that migrating was happening" until, she realized one day that her kinfolk lived in nine different countries: "There are reasons that certain borders were open and closed to Indians at different periods in history."
About ten years ago, Harjatwala says she began "noticing how South Asian-ness in the United States had shifted from this sort of obscure nationality to ... a megatrend." This increased visibility of Indians and Indian culture in America was a big change from the "very white community in suburban Michigan" where she lived as a child: "When we said we were Indian, people asked us, 'What tribe?'"
The book took much longer to write than she had originally planned, because although "I'd been a journalist for years and I had also been writing poems for years ... whenever I tried to write about my family or the diaspora in those forms, I wasn't satisfied. It turned out that neither poetry nor journalism was quite big enough to hold my family stories. I needed a narrative, almost epic form." 12:30 p.m., free. ColoredGirls.org